Foster Care.

Lately I have been thinking (A LOT) about becoming a foster parent. I kind of feel led to become one (he's doesn't feel as strongly about it as I do). I feel like it would give us a child (hopefully an infant) who is in need of a loving home...AND relieve us of the pressure and stress trying to conceive has brought on. We have talked a little about it before and it seems his concern is getting attached and then the child going back. I have talked to a few foster moms who say that it's impossible to not get attached...but if they are placed back in their home with their birth parents you have to believe that is what's best for the child. I have been thinking about this for awhile...but I seem to think about it more when I get a BFN or when AF arrives and I know I'm not pregnant. I don't want to "replace" our unborn child...or whatever. I just feel, like I said before, it would take the stress off of us (me), and we would have someone else to take care of and worry about other than conceiving.

Working at the daycare I have been exposed to A LOT of foster kids and foster parents...and their stories. Some are sweet success stories...some...not so much. Actually while I was working with an infant...Social Services (we had no idea) came in and removed her. It broke my heart for her, but I knew she would be better off.

When Nathan and I were dating (and even now)his great-grandmother would ask if I would ever become a foster parent. Back then, I was hesitant about it and really didn't consider it. Now that I know we are having such a hard time conceiving, I would do it in a second (not only for our benefit...but most importantly for the child's benefit). When she asked me that, Nathan's cousin's were foster parents who were trying to adopt their foster child. It was a very long process. She heard all of the stress and struggles they were going through and said that she didn't know if she could handle having a child in her life and then that child out of her life. I get where she's coming from but at the same time I don't. Yeah...I'm sure I would get super attached, but these kids NEED someone who loves them and can provide for them.

As you can see I'm really struggling with this. Nathan isn't as "on board" with this as I am. Don't worry...I would never go behind him and proceed with the process. I just have a lot on my mind...

So, What's your take on this? I know it may not be what I want to hear...but go for it. I need some honest opinions. :)